AIDS Awareness - Original Spoken Word Piece

On Wednesday November 24th , our school had an AIDS Awareness Assembly . I wrote a spoken word piece trying to capture the emotions of someone who was a rape victim and as a result was diagnosed with the Sexually Transmitted Disease .

Seconds . Minutes . Hours . 

Seconds . Minutes . Hours .

Close your eyes

Cause here comes the cold shower .

Wash away the shame .

Wash away the lies .

Wash away the fact that

He had all the power .

He has no face .

He has no name .

He has no race .

He took away your dreams -

Your trust , your life .

A feeling of safe , you must now chase .

Although you make it seem

Like everything's alright ;

We see it destroying you

Like an endless night-mare .

It's a hidden burden

You refuse to share .

Cause your friends ;

You don't wanna scare

You keep saying you're

Tired of crying ,

But , damn girl ,

You're not even trying .

No one said it's gonna be easy .

You're always gonna have those memories .

So I'm askin' ; beggin' you

For the sake of yourself -

Please - stop blaming yourself .

You and I both know

That you had no control over how things went down .

You couldn't have said ' no '

It wouldn't have made a difference .

He wouldn't have let you go .

Lonely and cold

No where to go .

No where to run .

No one to hold .

No one to love .

Cause to them ; I'm a monster ;

The true meaning of evil .

Feelings - I can no longer feel .

They're failing to realize that I am the victim .

If they took a minute

to look me in the eyes

They'd see that it's him .

Seconds . Minutes . Hours .

That's all it took for him

to rip away my innocence .

What made him so angry ?

What made him resort to such violence ?

Was it something I said

That planted those sick

thoughts inside his head ?

What is it that could have led

To him demanding -

Forcing me to bed ?

A tale of unfortunate events .

I couldn't help ;

Change the way things went .

It was out of my hands .

Terrified and trembling -

So still , motionless I laid .

Maybe if I fought back -

Screamed ,

I wouldn't have been

Infected with AIDS .

Seconds . Minutes . Hours .

I'm still living , I'm still breathing .

Everyone's running .

Everyone's leaving .

I'm still crying

Cause I know

There's no point in trying .

It was  a mistake I made ; a choice .

I trusted him with everything .

He took it all , left me with now voice .

In a flash , my life was taken .

And from this night mare ,

I'll never awaken .

Seconds . Minutes . Hours .

Summer Fierce